내가 죽으려고 생각한 것은 僕ぼくが死しのうと思おもったのは

The reason I thought about dying was
Because a black-tailed gull was crying at the pier
Floating and vanishing as it's swept in by the waves
Just peck at the past and fly far away

The reason I thought about dying was
Because apricot blossoms bloomed on my birthday
If I could fall asleep in the light filtering through the leaves
Could I become dust along with the insect's shell?

Peppermint candy, a lighthouse at the port
A rusted overpass and an abandoned bicycle
Standing in front of the heater at the wooden station
My heart, which cannot go anywhere

That today is no different from yesterday
To change tomorrow, you must change today
I know, I know, but...

The reason I thought about dying was
Because my heart was empty
The reason I'm crying because it won't be filled
Is it because I yearn to be filled?

The reason I thought about dying was
Because my shoelaces came undone
I'm still clumsy at fixing the knot
And my relationships with people are just the same

The reason I thought about dying was
Because a boy was looking at me
Kneeling on the bed with my head bowed
I said I'm sorry to my past self

The faint light of the computer
The clattering from the floor above
The ringing bell of the intercom
The boy in the birdcage covering his ears

Fighting against invisible enemies
A Don Quixote in a cramped studio room
The end will be cruel anyway

The reason I thought about dying was
Because I was told I'm a cold person
The reason I'm crying, saying I want to be loved
Is because I already know the warmth of a person

The reason I thought about dying was
Because you smiled so beautifully
The reason I think only about death
Is it because I live life too seriously?

The reason I thought about dying was
Because I hadn't met you yet
This world where someone like you was born
I've come to like it just a little bit

This world where someone like you will live
I've started to look forward to it just a little bit